Today I am beginning the second day of my new diet.

     I've made a significant amount of lifestyle changes in the past few months and have recently been trying harder than ever to ignore their effects on my body. This year at school I typically do not go to sleep until 2:30-3 O'clock on any given day to wake up around eight during the school week. This has been a result of poor time management leaving me up until all hours of the nigh writing papers studying for tests and just trying to get organized. In addition to this I have been out late drinking at clubs and house parties into the wee hours of the morning every Thursday Friday and Saturday accompanied with the occasional Wednesday. On top of all of this is have gone from strict calorie counting and workout regimes to eating any and everything I want or can consume as a result of all the stress that has been smacked on my plate. I also can not honestly say I have been to the gym more than 5 times in the past 9 weeks and with the more time that passes the less interest I have in making my way there.           

     Now you are probably wondering what terrifying effects this new lifestyle has had on my body. I have developed terrible acne I have not had sense Middle School that refuses to go away regardless of what products I have used. I even resorted to taking a trip to the clinic to be prescribed Birth Control and upon my visit was told to come back in a month if my problem persists (I have yet to make it back mainly out of the shock that I mat be the first woman in history to be refused Birth Control on a college campus). I am constantly tired and trying to squeeze in naps just to wake up realizing I only have 5 minutes to get to class. And foremost I have gained weight. I have began to notice slight changes in my body for the past 4 or 5 weeks. I have developed a little more of a tummy and my size 4 jeans do not have the same flattering fit they once did. I thought naturally I could avoid all of this by trading in my fitted tanks and spandex short shorts to more concealing and figure flattering apparel but this past weekend I was hit with something I could not avoid.

     This past weekend was out Fall Break and my first weekend home this year. I loved all the space in my room and how there were not people everywhere I looked and how I could just be alone with my thoughts. And one of the most spectacular things of all would probably have to be my not public bathroom. I spent time in there brushing my hair for unnecessary amounts of time and trying out most every spa and beauty product I left behind in my mirror. In the midst of one of these escapades I noticed something I was able to happily forget about while away at school. The Scale. I began to contemplate in my mind if I would ignore it all together or turn over a new leaf then and there and wait until the end of the long weekend to see my dreaded number but all in all decided to just weight myself then and there. Before leaving for school I busted my ass all Summer to reach my goal weight of 122 lbs. I theorized that so long as my number was under 130 I would not have to be too concerned with this as 128 is what I would normally waver around. I quickly stepped on the scale before I could change my mind.

134.5 is what read out.

    This is far my than what I have ever weighed and cause for me to go light headed. Something needed to be done and quickly! I immediately thought a weekend free of drinking would make up for a lot of this. At the end of the weekend I weighed 134 lbs. Not exactly the quick turn around I had in mind. So then and there on that Sunday morning I decided this would be the start to my new lifestyle. I have yet to work out the kinks and what state i'll be in the Halloween weekend but I know for sure that thanks to my once favorite phone App MyFitnessPal I have established with exercising 5 days a week, 1,200 calories is what I am allotted to get back to pre-school year weight. This will take an estimated 6 weeks. That is a hell of a lot of time to repent my food and drink sins of the past 9 weeks. I reached this goal yesterday. It is currently 12:43 on Monday and I have consumed 290 calories in granola bars and yogurt....14 hours to go today. Dear god this is hard. Please someone somewhere give me the strength to get though this and back to where I feel amazing about myself.